Surrender -- deepening into the peace of acceptance

Ok -- so here we go again....well again, but different.
So previous blog post was about the basis for my latest lesson in trust.  It has been my doorway into surrender defined as "deepening into the peace of acceptance" (thanks Roz).

So how do I deepen into this peace?  Well to start off something screwy happened as I'd written this post based on the theme of surrender in terms of yin yoga----- and it disappeared. I thought it was pretty insightful....and thought it was saving all the way along as it appeared to be doing this auto save thing.  But it didn't -- so surrendering those thoughts and going with what's here today.

How do I deepen into the peace of acceptance?   I am using the tools that I've been acquiring along this journey:  yoga, meditation, reflection with horses, awareness, contemplation, listening to my intuition, conscious breath.  And I'm finding it's taking all of these tools, maybe not all at once but man oh man, I'd have to say I'm employing a combo at any given moment.  And behind it all is the big one:  TRUST.  If there's no trust, then there's no acceptance and then peace goes out the window. 

I know why I've got this "space" right now to work with surrender.  In my old way of being it was impossible.  In order to have the life that's waiting for me, I've needed to get rid of the life I'd planned.  So plans are gone.

And the coolest things reveal themselves to me with no plans.  An Aerial yoga workshop found me -- basically got to try my hand at defying gravity on Aerial Silk & an Aerial Ring......and I got to imagine myself as a performer in Cirque de Soleil. It was amazing.  It was the closest to thing I know to truly defying gravity....suspended in mid air simply by being strategically wrapped in the silk.  I felt like I had no limits.  Don't get me wrong it was work, hard work at times....but I truly felt that once into the proper alignment I could let go and surrender to the trust of my alignment within the apparatus.  And in that moment it was effortless.........the peace of acceptance.  The work to get to the alignment, to find the balance was needed to achieve that split second of being limitless, effortless, defying gravity.

So how do I deepen this peace of acceptance......by trusting that the work to hit that moment of peace is all worth it.  And with practice --- 'cause guess what I'm goin' back to another workshop......the work gets easier. 

These experiences are what deepen the trust.  I'd always admired the performers of Cirque de Soleil, wishing I could see what it felt like to do what they do.......but grounded by my limitations---age, the regret of lost opportunities...and then one day I stumbled across this workshop only an hour from home and when I first looked at the advertisement, I thought it was on a day I had to teach yoga here in Chatham.  A week later I looked again and it was on my "day off" -- and I signed up in a flash.   I could have sworn I checked a couple of times in disappointment that it was a day I couldn't go.  But some how, that next time I looked --- the dates were just fine.  And in 2 weeks I was flying thru the air with the greatest of ease.....and wanting to do more!

I'm not sure if this speaks to surrender directly -- but it does speak to the trust needed to truly surrender, yes?  So as I go into my first month of  owning a horse --- something else I never dreamed of even 2 months ago ......all I can say is thank you to Spirit, the Universe, my guides, angels, my divinely wise self.......for the journey through the process of surrender.  Thank you for holding me when the trust is a little shaky and through the work and the practice to the deepening peace.